My Freakkin Life

someone wrote this:

-This is what makes you good in sports-
Real athletes swim... Everyone else just play games. Swimming isn't just an obsession, its life.
There are two kinds of people in this world, swimmers & people who wish they were. If swimming were any easier it would be football. The question isn't about who is going to let me. It’s who is going to stop me. It’s not how good you are...It’s how bad you want it. Gold medals are not really made of gold... They are made of sweat, determination and a hard to find alloy called gold.
Real swimming is about those last laps, when the music in your head is gone, your arms are dead, and your legs feel like anvils. And all that is left is the power left in your heart, tat brings u all the way in. Once u r on the block, nothing matters but the race. When you go into a race thinking & "What if", you'll come out saying "If only". If u go in thinking "I can" you’ll come out saying "I did”. Just because u swim doesn't make u a swimmer. “Winners train, losers complain..." When ppl ask me what sport I play...I say I don’t play, I swim. Practice makes perfect is myth, the truth is, perfect practice makes perfect, but yet no one is perfect! I've been told swimming is a wimp sport, but I don't see it. We don't get time outs in a middle of a race, we can't stop and catch our breath, and outmost, there are no substitutions! Not all athletes wear shoes! When life tinkles in your pool of dreams, add chlorine and keep swimming. You’ll have time to breath after the race! You know when u love swimming when u hit the water all your troubles seem to leave you, and when you can have the worst day of your life but when you dive in and concentrate on the water you feel relax and feel like you are out of your body and in a different world. You crave the competition of racing against a girl that might be a little faster and you need to beat her. That’s when you know u love swimming.

No matter how hard you practice...
Someone is practicing harder!
No matter how good u r....
Someone is better!

Today is Malaysia's Merdeka Day... No one really cares anyway... So we had one day off. Cool! I spend the whole day doing what I should do. For the first time! Cuz on days like this, I would probably while away the time relaxing when I have so many things to do.

I've just figured out that my life is somewhat great and miserable. I had swimming, friends that care for me, great relatives. On the other hand, my dad is always ruining things for us and sometimes I get betrayed by my friends. So, maybe I'm not so pathetic after all.

Cikgu Latif is still not back from Brazil yet. Yesterday training was... NOTHING! We didn't swim. I'm refering to Doreen, Mandel and me. SiowNgoh was the most hardworking one. She swam e-v-e-r-y thing we were suppose to do. Wow... Anyway, we did do 3/4 hundreds then stop to chat. Mandel told us about his school. haha... Oh yeah, HaoJie's mum went to Doreen's house or something like that, and he gave us keychains from Sukma. The thing is, the keychain he gave me and the keychain he gave the others was not the same. Weird. But, I like it.

The swim meet on 16 of Sept is for swimmers 13 y/o and below. Aww man! That's sucks! I would go to this one if I'm allowed to swim... That's it. After Ong Kwee Hui, 2007's MSSD and MSSJ, NAG, I'll stop for good. Then, swimming will be history for me. *sob* I'm not going to training later. It'll be boring. After all, we'll end up playing. Might as well pack my school bag for tomorrow.

School's reopening tomorrow. Ugh. I'm cleaning up my room. Living in a pig sty is a nightmare. Well, sort of. LOL.!!

Ciao~

My Life is a total disaster. My parents are robots. My brothers and I are ruin for LIFE.

 Things could have been worse, dad would've probably thrown Eugene outta the house or killed him. Whatever... How could things happened this way? Eugene could've stopped the fight from starting. I mean, it really was his fault. He shouldn't keep pestering dad about why he can't work in Wind Valley. Dad's very tired after one whole day of work. Plus Eugene should know that dad had always been unreasonable. How could he make everything more difficult for mum and me? Ugh. So much for being thoughtful.

 As I lay on their bed listening to dad and Eugene argue, I was so afraid of anything bad was going to happen so I was like pinned down to the bed. I couldn't sleep when stuff like that is happening around the house. I remembered few years back, mum and dad had an arguement, I mean, they always had plenty, this was one of them when dad said he would probably burnt the house down when we're sleeping. I didn't know what made me so frightened, I stayed up the whole night trying to hear if dad's going near the stove to set the house on fire. I pricked up my ears when I heard any little sounds. Then, I realise he wasn't really going to do that and went to sleep. With no luck. Anyway, anytime like just now, if I were Eugene, I guess I am already dead. Mum and Dad, now Eugene too, have absolutely zero tolerance with that kind of behaviour of mine. But that's also probably why I'm always showing the "bad" me around the house. Not to mention I'm bringing it everywhere I go. I couldn't help but wondering why mum and dad let eugene and ben get away with it. Maybe it's because they are BOYS! You think so? uh-huh... or maybe Eugene is sorta "the heir" around here and Ben's probably beacuse he is... well... small? Sometimes, I  really wished I was born in some famliy where their don't raise their voice. But that'll be boring wouldn't it?

I think this song suits me and RuWen just right just like the another one.

On The Ride - Aly & Aj

We don't have to try
To think the same thoughts
We just have a way
Of knowing everything's gonna be ok

The feeling's so clear and it's crazy up here
Life is amazing with you on the ride
The place so is crazy
The race is so worth it
Life is amazing with you on the ride

jz finish mai theory exam.. aiya, the stupid teacher, told us we can onli hand up 40 minutes after the exam starts or 40 minutes before... what da hell la... where got such rules... i was quite fustrated with her... so i kept asking her if she was sure bout the time... until she very pekcek oso.. hehe.. ... but after that another teacher came in and told us we can hand up anytime.. lol...

oh, forgot to mention i finish the blend i was making... me and ruwen de.. i love it very much!!! it's one of the best... !!

sheesh... i got so many things to do yet lazy to do all... haihz.. keeps happening... die la.. tomolo theory exam.. hope i wont fail..wakaka.. ... sumthing jz crossed my mind.. i hav many nicknames o... hehe... got pat, ah pat, bei ji xia, sock leng, petronas, partini... and many many more.. i cant rmb all rite now.. haha.. but i love them.. well, kinda... hehe... bei ji xia means north prawn.. haha.. my swimming friends call me that... but only the kids la.. all the teenage swimmers all old liao, call me patricia.. or pat.. or ah pat... hehe.. i like that.. i dont like people to call me my chinese name.. weird i know but i dun fancy my chinese name a lot...

*yawn*.. tomolo theory exam... wy i must remind myself?... haih ya... i love alot of ppl... my family, my relatives, ruwen, qian wen, swimmers (some hate la)... school friends (some oso hate).. i think no more.. hehe... aiyo, im fat liao la... i got baby face and chubby waistline.. *blush*.. hehe...

this morning's trainin was.... so freakkin tiring!!!!! lol.. but we manage to finish whatever we were suppose to do... barely alive... we were like stupids screaming like banshees wen cikgu latif said "ok,finish"... haha... then we jz sat/lay ther...  lol... ^^anyway, mandel performed a catwalk... with the flower pot upside down on his head, so it looked like a hat.. then the string wrapped around his body... hahaha... so funny..!! hehehehe.. after being crazy ppl for 10 minutes, we finally went to shower... i think we're turning into chlorine weirdos... first, we're all weird... okay fine! jz me... secondly, we're always dipped inside chlorine water..

no training tonight.. cikgu latif's going to Brazil...!! WHOHOO!!! but...... he did ask us to go train ourselve.. he wrote the workload for nxt wekk.. damn.. im so lazy to go...

and so... ...        ... im bored... lalala... ~~.. oh.. i've jz remembered... ugh... even though exam's over.. i've still gotta buck up in my studies.. there's a swimming copmetition on Sept 16 in jb... i've got to work on that.. THEN, there's this school music concert.. i've got to prepare for that too!!!! UGH!!! Why am i always so busy!?!?!??!?

Chern Xiang broke his left arm.. haihz.. i went training again this morning... mum brought eugene to the dentist.. so i'll be alone at home until late afternoon.. i hope.. lol..

how can some be dirt poor and some filthy rich??