start: 4:48pm

Hey hey hey... lol.. came back from school 48 minutes ago... today chemistry a.. i tot very hard... but hor, easy until siao ah~.. all text bk de, luckily i got study oso la.. wait, i go toilet..

ok.. come back liao.. haha.. where was i..?? oh, now i continue... i nvr studied for chemistry oso.. hate that teacher lah, she's my form teacher.. ish.. very horrid a.. everyday wan to find fault wif me de.. but i oso tak peduli her la... wat for go listen to dog bark? no point oso... every1 in my class hate her a.. not all hate la, some onli dont like her.. but no one likes her lo... muahaha... ok, return to wat i was saying jz now... some ppl in my class hor, their studies are average la, not like me, everytime fail... *sad*.. but this time a, duno why i start to study liao... yesterday nite a, studied quite alot wor..so today.. erm, i tink can manage to pass la... nvm oso, no 80 marks oso nvm, as long as got pass enough.. lol..

then jz now oso got english essay.. i wrote like, 300 smth words u know, i didn count la, but i think got dat much oso... but the stupid rule must be 180 words below... walau, i sure die la... i still got write very lebih de words wor.. aiya, forget it oso, pass up edi, pray oso no use.... stupid rule... cannot let students write long long then have better vocab ma... underestimate us oso...

after exam i waited for my best friend for 1 hour leh!! walau, i almost killed her when i saw her... i hate to wait for ppl de.. really dont like ah!! got many times my mum didn come to fetch me after training and need me to wait for her for 45 minutes or more, i very boiling like volcano ready to explode wor... angry until i wan to cry a... shit.. my mum oso take no notice and continue to be late until got some times i wanted to walk back from bukit banang to my house.. about 7km ... barulah she willing to arrive punctual.. as for Wen a, that's my best friend i was talking bout, aiya, forgive her la... she oso got tell me she will b late onli i didn expect her 2 b 1 hour late... den we went to "cha fang".. a place where alot of couples from my skol go der and "pa to".. we went der and find sooo many ppl der.. but all together one... then duno how oso, we found out they are "2 wen 2" de students... not all la, maybe some cannot come.. cuz exam ma.. my ex-"xue zhang" was der oso, and "jia xiang", the red tie guy and lychee oso der.. duno why he was invited oso... anyway, we got talk and laugh la... den jia xiang said my written words in my bk very ugly... walau... didn ask for his advise oso keep talk talk talk until wen and me fedup ah... haha.. no la, not very fedup oso... cuz he is actually a nice guy la... haha... soli hor, he got girlfriend edi, so don think too much... then my ex-"xue zhang", qin jian, haha... he a... very cute... haha.. duno how to say la... he's jia xiang's sidekick... my class got alot of girls like him oso... haha... im his no.1 fan of course la... cheh... hehe.. turns out it was ah chao's birthday la.. so dey brought cake and play play play lo... aiya, ah chao oso forgotten who i am edi la, so nonit wish him happy birthday oso can de... hehe... very wicked hor... hahaha...  actually we went there to study together de.. but hor, too noisy la.. but the time they all went back, we oso lost interest studying lo... so aiya, go home la.... haha... why i keep haha har? lol...

haihzz.. sienz a... getting fatter each day... three weeks didn go for training edi... might as well stop la... haihzz... so sad... last time very long ago i was on top on the list of johor swimmers de le.. haha... thick face.. then hor... two girls there had a fight wif me then i oso lost interest in swimming.. plus got alot of things happen la... like, who like who then who betray who or who hate who... dat kind of things la... duno why everybody cannot live together ok ok de... so different from the kl or other states de swimmers, all so united and nice to each other.... haihzz.... anyway, i wen downhill in swimmin lo... haihz... i really miss those days when i went to all those great great competitions that only good swimmers can go de... now a... haihzz.. this year de mssm and sukma i didn get selected oso... sarah, siow ngoh, doreen, xue ting they all all better then me... so... haih.. i really love swimming la, to be frank.. but.. my dad oso not supportive.. he only wan me to study study study until crazy... then become doctor like him... i hate this kind of thinking a... i can oso be good at other things but no one to support me so i can onli be sad then study study study until crazy jz to please him... i really miss competition times when we were playin and having fun together la... now slowly but surely, one by one the swimmers are going away liao.. not die la... is growing up liao... haih... old ppl say young ppl don always haih and haih and keep sighing... but wat can i still do besides sighing? swimming is not like some other sports, want to become very great then can become very great de... swimming needs time... im old liao lo... 14 edi le... not 7 le... if still 7 a, i can still continue in swimming... now a.. i think my coach oso think i tak boleh edi... aiya, fine la, i'll face facts, i'll study study study until crazy for ppl to see wat can happen to a person if u take away their dreams and hopes... haihz... thinking back i oso wan to cry... really very heart breaking de le.. i think other swimmers know how i feel... together go competition together , hav fun together, swim together, get scold by coach together, tipu sikit workload together, makan the forbidden ice-cream together, get caught together... all these things u know... it's really sad la... to give up when i could be one of the best... but now... how.... no choice edi... gotta face facts.. im not getting any younger pula... haihzz....

so later i got training i think im oso not going la... cuz my dad surely wil say no de... cuz stil got exam on monday and tuesday... or should i? should i go training and then swim until im out of breath then get laugh by others... wait, i go switch on the fan... a stupid blood-sucking mosquito flying around my legs... walau... itchy a... ok, continue... now wat to do? 5:34pm now... training at 7pm... but if want to go must ask doreen come to fetch me cuz my mum and dad went to melaka... aiyo.. headache a... if wan to stop then i really want to stop all trainin and not go to the pool anymore.. but if dun wan stop then must improve or will kena ppl laugh.. saying i swim until old liao still like dat... haihz.... im turning crazy la...   but for sure one thing... swimming is my life....

end: 5:38pm